the play was great yesterday! even if it was my second time to watch it! ;) the movie that we watched before was also great hehe :D the night was great too because there was a lot of Celadon people in Oody's... the food...ice monster afterwards...whee it was surreal! :D to top it all off i got some alcohol in my system in the early morning which really cleared my head! :D when i was back home at 230am i immmediately changed to my sleeping clothes and dropped into bed! :D then came the realization that something was still amiss... i had just experienced momentary indolentia : freedom from pain...
even if everything about yesterday was great and it easily thwarted off some of my sad thoughts eventually the experience was short-lived... reality always comes back to haunt you... a night out with friends may be fun but your friends do not hang aroung you 24 hours and once you are alone again everything just comes back...
and when everything comes back hmmm... how do i say it... ahhh all hell breaks loose in your head... it's like a geyser that was plugged and the pressure just pops the plug out of place...after a while the thoughts run around your head...and eventually will settle down so that everything is just as it was...chaotic...
somehow i'm not deeply saddened that my mind is thrown back into chaos again because it makes me realize the importance of having some company around you... having people around really helps "distract" you from your normal thoughts and gives you a well-deserved break! and because of this i dedicate this blog to those i was with last night and this early morning "thank you very much!" :D
side note: even if the thinking causes pain...it really is hard to stop... i don't love pain... but it's essential... so is thinking...
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