survival

studying to become a doctor is no joke... something that has become a mantra all these years of aspiring to become one... but mantras are not enough... it takes a real experience to make the feeling more tangible... just barely two days of classes in ust medicine and i'm already staggering... i seldom get sick and when i usually do it really is a bad sign... my head has been aching everytime i get home and i feel so drained of energy... sleeping early does no good as the lectures slowly pound the living life out of me... my wallet has been taking a toll of a beating as well because of all the handouts as well as the books that i need... take note this is even after chok gave me all of his materials... by the way thank you so much chok... i'm still trying to find solid ground... definitely this is something that i didn't expect... this makes college look like kindergarten... after hearing the orientations given by four out of seven departments... i can't help imagine the nightmarish appearance of the examinations as well as the load that i'll have to take on for the whole year... i just have to thank God everyday that i survive for i'm quite sure this will be one bumpy ride...