blur

simple things can lead to big disappointments... as time passes by and we go on with our everyday lives there are stuff that we have intentionally or unintentionally overlooked... they may be as simple as toys or personal belongings or maybe as serious and complicated as acquaintances or old friends... it's the same feeling you get while riding in a speeding car... everything outside the window is a blur while the only thing you can recognize or the only thing that is clear is what lies ahead of you... apparently this optical illusion can happen even if you weren't on a car... and it really is saddening to experience such... as i was graciously given time to think about what has been happening to me the past few days... i have realized that i was experiencing this illusion...

one indicator was this blog... i never realized that the last entry was a month ago... another reminder was my night out with HS friends... i missed that feeling of hanging out with them talking about stuff that have been going on in our lives... i also found out that when it came my turn to update them... i had nothing much to say except my work at school and blah blah blah... the same things over and over again... i can say that i'm doing something worthwhile and that i know what i'm doing but when i was talking about it... there seemed to be no clear details in the matter... the sad part is i cant even seem to update them about other aspects of my life... either they are dead or inactive or because i haven't paid much attention to them...

i have to learn the value of slowing things down... at least to the point that i can survey my surroundings and see what i may have missed... i don't intend to drop anything that i'm currently working on... it's just that i feel i owe some attention to those that i might have overlooked... given more time like this i might be able to give them some justice... that for once in my busy schedule... i have recognized them as parts of my life that needs noticing...