priorities

Saturday, March 26, 2005

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wow... it's been quite some time since i last posted... but it seems that since i have time in my hands right now i'll take advantage and try to write a decent post... well so far so many events have gone by without me mentioning a word about them... first off is the COA elections... finally the results are out... i guess i have a lot of stuff to do for that and as well as my fellow officers... good luck to all of us... next there was the LS grad... congratulations to all the graduates... last was Celadon Night... congratulations to all the winners of the awards and as well as to the next set of officers... as for the minor happennings like the choir and dance troupe performances... well i believe that both groups are in good hands...

right now it seems that i might be getting a loadful of stuff to do in the future... and i would really have to rely on my gut feeling as to which one i will prioritize... i have been doing this for the past three years in Ateneo and hopefully it won't fail me in my fourth year... i've usually stuck to the decisions that i've made and sometimes it really tries to shake me whether i made the right choice or not... but i guess this is the time when i have to have faith in myself... oftentimes people might lose faith in you... they might not see the way you see... they might not think the way you think... they might not feel the way you feel... but in the end it all boils down to how much you stand up for yourself...

i had a recent conversation with jules... i told him that i strive to better myself not because i want to prove myself worthy to other people... but i strive to be better because of the people who believe in me... and well with that being said i would like to thank all those who do... especially those who not only say it but those who show that they believe in me... but of course all of this will be for naught if the one important person who should believe in you doesn't do so... and that person is you...

poem

Sunday, March 13, 2005

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A mighty pain to love it is,
And ’t is a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain.

a friend shared this poem with me... it is by Abraham Cowley(1618-1667)... i just love the way the rhyme goes... it's like a tongue twister... the more you repeat it... the harder it gets... sometimes you feel like you're getting used to it and then...all of a sudden... you make a mistake... isn't that how love is...

formlessness

Sunday, March 06, 2005

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assume formlessness... this was a thought shared by our new corps commander... it seems that it is a powerful advice... it is true that life is governed by concepts... and those that are in the grey areas are usually neglected because they are full of the unknown... it is easier to see things in black and white... to place things in perspective... to have meaning for everything... to immediately know bad from good... within ourselves... we also seek the place that we are most comfortable with... a secure location that we are so sure of ourselves... we form that barrier around us that limits us to what we think we can handle... we place boundaries to our imagination by realizing what can become real... in the end we fail to realize that we limit oursleves in the process... we cannot adapt easily to the changes that will happen... the wheel of fortune always turns and so do we... but because we want to feel comfortable... we are not able to move along with it... we end up being disappointed... getting slapped by reality is harsh for anyone... but the ability to take that slap and use it as a proponent to move on is the challenge that i believe anyone should take... to harness the power to move on... the power to keep struggling against life challenges... assume formlessness to allow ourselves to be more adaptive to what is happening... maybe this is the key to happiness... a happiness that perhaps we are probably seeking in the wrong place... i guess it's time to move and look around a little more... consider other options and to see better horizons...