second anniversary

happy 2nd anniversary angelainey!!! may this picture remind us of the good times we have together!!! i love you very much!!!

ps... thanks to birdie for the idea... pictures are courtesy of the picture company at the fort...

true healing

Medical science has deemed that healing isn’t reserved only in a physical or psychological plane... It actually involves biological, psychological, and social processes... I talk about this now as I recollect what I went through in the first intensive... I was really excited to attend it so much so that I felt like nothing could stop me but alas life got the better of me and decided to challenge my resolve by inflicting me with a certain malaise by making it almost impossible to get out of bed... A part of me wanted to shrug off the spiking fever and the intermittent cough but another part wanted me to trust the natural process and let my body recuperate for the night and thus I wasn’t able to attend the first night of the first intensive...

The next day, I did feel better so much so that I was gearing up to really go to the 2^nd day of the first intensive... I had to go through one obstacle and that was the go signal from my mom... She couldn’t understand why I was so insistent on going while I was still convalescing... Her perception was that I was being stubborn and that I was pushing myself too hard that I’d eventually get sicker... The negativity didn’t help at all, it really made me doubt what I was capable of and so I let it slide past me and eventually I stood my ground and declared that I was going to OCCI...

That decision made all the difference in my road to recovery... As soon as I got there, I was instantly greeted by smiling faces and the positive energy in the room... With every greeting and every smile, I felt myself feel lighter and more confident about my condition... As I went on with the day's activities, I felt it really helped by shifting the focus of my mind instead of the sickness but to the healing process... Instead of sulking around and feeling depressed about my condition, I was getting revved up for the rest of the day and eventually it peaked during the last activity... At a certain point in all the excitement, I didn’t feel sick at all... I was helping people get through with the best of my capabilities... Living in that moment felt like I was unstoppable and that nothing could bring me down... The focus was to get through the activity and succeed 100%... We did just that as we got everyone across by focusing our thoughts in our goal...

That was my experience of true healing... It wasn’t about being sick at all but about the determination to rise above the ailment and overcome the difficulties... It was about believing in myself that I can get through it despite the obstacles and also about having other people believe in me all the way... It was also about acceptance of all the love and care of the people that were there...

Having realized this as I’m on my way to becoming a doctor, has made a real difference in how I view my profession... It certainly isn’t only about the medications and the prescriptions but about the genuine and loving human connection that brings true healing about... I thank LEAP Team 33 for teaching me this valuable lesson during the first intensive and I also say thanks in advance for the many more valuable lessons to come!!!

My Trusting Love Heals!!!